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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

i've wasted another day=X

oops. oh wells. it's okay. there's STILL time. yeah yeah. self-consolation=P haha. wells, today's identical to yesterday. so there's not much left for me to say.

anyways, my sister came back from china last night. hahaha. she bought me this metal teddybear keychain. cute=)

watching davinci with coll tomorrow=) and now im going to send an email to my zilly partner. all in the name of maintaining a long-distance friendship. LOL.

arghh!!! i can't wait to go out. staying at home 24/7 is just too stifling. well haha. i guess i just don't wanna pick up my notes and start studying when i've nothing to do. omg im so dead. im such a hopeless procrastinator=X and im supposed to submit my study hours to titus at the end of this week. minimum 20 hours a week or be banned from cellgroup meetings. oh but lookie here. do i care? haha. obviously not=P oops. okok. im not trying to be rebellious here or anything. i just don't like the idea that someone's watching over me like a hawk. especially when it comes to studying. i'll study and do my work on my OWN accord. willingly. i don't need no naggings man. hahaha. okok i know. it's for my own good. so i'll try my best to fulfill the 20-hour target=) hahaha.

yups. that's all for today.

till next, people!

geks dageek @ 8:02 PM

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Monday, May 29, 2006

i LOVE disney songs. right now, im hooked to 'beauty and the beast'. hahahaha.

okay, that was quite random but oh wells=)

what a dull and boring day=P woke up at about 10.30 in the morning and re-watched 'wonderful life' till 2.45. took a 2-hour nap after that. woke up. bathed. had dinner. read tsubasa 13.

wow. what an exciting life that im leading=P yeah yeah. i know i should do some studying but hey. i need to rest before i start that vicious cycle of never-ending rounds of revisions. sucks, doesn't it? imagine i've to do that for the next one and a half years? omg. it really terrifies me. haha. oh wells. i guess there's no choice left for us students to make, is there? nopes. lols.

anyway anyway anyway, i SIMPLY can't wait for 12 june to arrive! it's The Babes' Bonding Day. major=D we're going to have the time of our life! rock on=) oh yeah! and there's s03 (1st intake) gathering at mugen's house this thursday. yay! i can see my dear pepper again=) bliss. lols.

i miss mugen. i miss yongjian. i miss guanhoe. i miss zhexuan. i miss everyone in s03=)

okay. well, maybe not everyone. haha.

i miss my babes THE MOST. major. hahaha.

okiedokies. shall end off here.
sweet dreams=)

geks dageek @ 7:30 PM

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

yay! i changed my layout. again. haha. 'cause i found the previous one a little silly=P i mean, it's a little too cutesy for my age. lols. anyways, it's good to be able to slack away my weekend. need rest, people=) haha. but i DID promise myself and the moon and the stars and the sun that i will start my revision for the common tests this coming week. -nods head in determination- haha. just hope i won't be defeated by that evil thing called procrastination.

SATURDAY
woke up at 8.30. early, huh? haha. watched 'wonderful life' again. arghh! i love that korean drama=D the song! the actors! the plot! lols. slept for a while till about 12. as i was finding clothes to wear for church, i realised something HORRENDOUS. my pinafores and guides u are GONE. i went into full-panic mode. OMG. i thought my mum threw them away. haha. but in the end, she told me she kept them in the storeroom. whew. major relief=D and no. im not going to give another long story about how great the past had been and everything sappy. move on, girl=)

was supposed to meet hooper and his cellgrp at 3 but... oops=X i was late for 35 minutes. haha. felt a little bad. heh heh. reason? we-ell, i lost my sense of urgency. okay, i know. lousy excuse. hahaha. oh wells. i'll try not to be late next time=) i'll try. service was alright. except for the part where hooper and justine tried to fit everyone in as a superhero. crappy please. they wanted me to be wonderwoman but i objected strongly against it. LOL. so in the end i told them i wanna be buttercup, which of course led to some disagreements. haha. BUT i still got what i wanted=)

BUTTERCUP ROCKS!

oh yeah. one of my contacts fell out during service. well done=P hahaha. so i was half-blind for the rest of the evening. and that hulahoop did a 'great' job in showing sympathy for my almost-pathetic state by giving me directions and warning me not to crash into the pillars blah blah blah. when i could SEE for myself. annoying please=P lols. having fun at MY expense. tsktsktsk. titus too=P hmphs.

SUNDAY
nothing eventful happened today except for the rain. the BEST time to sleep. yups. slept for 3 hours=) shiok man.

i love GREEN. i love BUTTERCUP.

haha=D

geks dageek @ 8:08 PM

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

we are...

'AWESOME oh wow WE totally freak you out!'

hahaha=P

omg. training was tiring man. first part of it was watching the seniors and some J1s play against the ruggers. haha. it was quite comical 'cause they didn't really dare to 'touch' the girls. it was like playing catch. lols. had a short game after that. jeez my boots were a little loose=P oh wells, it doesn't really matter. had PT- 'awesome'. 40 for all items. hahaha. the touch ruggers are all awesome now! lols. arghhhh=P but my arm muscles are aching like hell. hahaha.

i really think my attitude sucks when im in bad mood. and i don't even know why i was in a totally foul mood this morning. i acted as though the whole world has wronged me or something. i dunno. but i just felt like everything's against me. oh wells. it was just for a fleeting moment. tsk. sometimes, my sudden change in mood scares me. take mondays for example. i'll always be super listless and putting on a don't-disturb-me face during the earlier part of the day. then i can be totally hyper all of a sudden. especially after physics lecture. and it was the same today. omg. im like scaring myself please. lols.

oh yeah oh yeah! saw miss lim yiwen at sa before training! lols. arghhhh miss her loads! she's the bestest of the best teacher evereverever=D hmph she couldn't believe it when i told her im in touchrug. she said something like 'you so gu niang you sure you can anot?'. hahaha. omg. she's the first person who actually said im girly okay. lols. see? im not that man after all=D anyways, it was great to see someone from ij=D

i dunno. but nowadays i seem to be running away from the present. while the people around me are rushing forth to embrace the future awaiting them, i find myself going backwards. perhaps im holding on to too much memories and that is why the past always seems better than the present. i really want those carefree days back. when we could all just laugh every single thing off. but now, i don't think that's possible anymore. 'cause not everything is as simple as we think it is and sometimes it's just damn difficult to dismiss all setbacks and the 'downs' with just a round of crazy laughter. okay i really should stop being so sickeningly sentimental. oh well.

but still.

but looking back on the happy times while going through the ups and downs of jc life does help to cheer me up. and to forget whatever annoying thoughts that are downright useless.

oh gosh. one and a half hours of physics tutorial tomorrow! someone please kill me now=P

geks dageek @ 8:46 PM

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

sunday's come and (going to be) gone. and tomorrow's the start of yet another week. another week overflowing with tests and stress. i really hate physics. so im not going to bother if i can even pass the stupid lecture test tomorrow. im in a totally heck-care mode. seriously. i can't be bothered about anything anymore. i don't care if im going to be the last in class, i don't care if im the dumbest in class, i don't care if everything else just falls apart. i can't be bothered to keep on making groundless speculations. it's useless, really. everything's just useless in the end. i dunno. but i've been dwelling too much on useless things that are beyond my control these few weeks. i don't know what's wrong with me. it's all so silly. really. 'cause there's nothing going on in the first place. and i swear i didn't start it. how i wish everything was as normal it should be. oh wells.

sometimes it's best to just switch the lights off.

then everywhere is dark.

and you won't be able to see anything.

geks dageek @ 9:54 PM

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

whew. im so glad this week's almost over. it's a killer man. seriously. sat for 4 bloody tests and i think im going to flunk every one of them. im so dead. anyways...

IM SUPER SUPER (times the infinity of the whole universe full stop plus one) SAD. why??? 'cause i missed the MOST IMPORTANT match of the year- the RUGBY FINALS against rjc. wahhh. i really have no life. and what's the reason for that? -rolls eyes- all in the name of being studious. whatever. im such a loser. arghhhh. totally regretted it. oh wells, can't turn back time now.

went down to CCAB to support soccer. sigh. we lost. but it was a good game, though. and the school spirit at the gallery was really infectious. haha. but the weather was super hot please. oh yeah oh yeah! saw yongjian in his vj uniform! hahaha. went home with gary. my god. the bus journey was super long please. hahaha.

okay. going to pack for touch camp tomorrow.

later=D

geks dageek @ 8:30 PM

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Monday, May 15, 2006

i can't believe i still have the time to come online. hahaha. nahhh. im just taking a break 'cause i've just finished figuring system of linear equations out. what a miracle! (considering the fact that i slept through most of the lecture.) just hope everything stays in my head, though. don't wanna get a mental block during the test tomorrow. hahaha. shall go through the AP/GP chapter later on. need to rest my worn-out brain. okok. lame excuse, i know. lols.

monday blues are heavy in the air around school today. sleepy, moody, sudden outbreak of high-ness. i was super tired during math and chem lects. haha. im a sleepyhead=P then i became unusually hyper during gp. lols. madness man. sa is driving me nuts. seriously.

and there are so many things to be done this week. SO MANY. godddd, im gonna just faint even before this week's over. arghhh. gp essay is the worst=X omg somebody please kill me now. what a disgusting week=X

the end of today is the start of tomorrow.

sigh. sad life=(

geks dageek @ 8:05 PM

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

they say impetuity ruins everything. honestly speaking, im impulsive by nature. i do things without thinking and say things without using my brain. most of the time, whatever i've said or done would be forgotten in less than a day's time. and so im just telling you guys out there not to take my words seriously. 'cause really, i don't mean them most of the time. but i guess it's subjective. there will be times when i really mean what i've said. well, it's up to you to interpret my words. haha.

sigh. i really regret what i did yesterday. i felt so childish afterwards. i mean, can you imagine? i just walked out of the auditorium after giving a super lame excuse that i wasn't feeling well. which, of course, is a total lie. i seriously cannot believe that i'd do such a thing. but there was some sort of improvement so it wasn't all that bad. i hope it'll remain that way, though.

second sigh. some people just don't get the hint, you know. it's so obvious that im not interested and yet. tsk. whatever. it's none of my business anyway.

oh wells. this week promises nothing but hell load of tests and stress. disgusting=P

im a hopeless procrastinator=D

geks dageek @ 7:36 PM

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Friday, May 12, 2006

omg. laughed so hard that i thought my stomach would turn upside down. hahahaha. today's outing the best man. it rules over any og or cg or whatever outings that i've attended so far=D was supposed to meet adels at three but... haha. i was late for about 20 minutes 'cause i was reading through the atomic structure (II) notes. studious, huh? haha. we walked around wisma and taka. yay! i finally bought my tsubasa chronicle 13=D im a happy girl. lols. ate gelato- butterscotch and yoggi. yummy=D

took the train, which was super crowded, down to toapayoh to meet baichi and hams. we walked around tp central 'cause we were early. then we went straight to mos to wait for them. oh! meows came too=D i had the appetite of a buffalo. first, i had two-scoops gelato. next, i had rice burger meal. then, i had another fish burger. freaky, eh? hahaha.

omg. i think we embarrassed ourselves thoroughly at mos. hahaha. we did lots of stupid things. we laughed like mad people. lols. and we took tons of retarded pictures=P baichi and i did the superman and spiderman pose. lols. omg it was damn hilarious=D and baichi has a stalker. hahaha. omg we really did a lot of stupid things. hahahaha. i can't believe we're still so retarded=D lols. hmmm. we should have more outings in the future.

i love being retarded=D
especially with adels, baichi, hams and meows=D

geks dageek @ 9:27 PM

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

i think my brain's not functioning properly. why? haha. the reason's damn crappy. 'cause i feel much more energetic than when i was on the way home. i was so sleepy that i didn't want to wake up and my contacts were VERY dry. so now im feeling super hyper. hahaha. okay. realistically speaking, im quite exhausted. okay whatever. the main thing is: i don't feel like going to bed anytime soon. lols. madness, isn't it? considering the fact that i normally sleep at nine plus=P hahaha.

anyway, limin was unusually hyper today. haha. crazy woman=P school was fine except physics tutorial. i was trying to keep myself awake most of the time. in the end, my eyelids were so bloody heavy that i couldn't even write properly. this is bad. bad bad bad. hmmm. i must find something to keep myself awake. well, i don't exactly like the idea of being caught by any teacher for dozing off. it's embarrassing, you know. hahaha.

and did i ever mention how much i love my friends in sa? i guess i did. haha. but im still gonna say it again: i love you guys!!! melly mins coll jas limin vince khalid branDON debos hsiaoens youyin cousin. and the list goes on. hahaha.

okay.

later=D

geks dageek @ 11:44 PM

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

arghhhh... i wanna skip school tomorrow. im so bloody tired=X

im sick of pw.
im sick of physics.
im sick of tutorials.
im sick of screwing things up again and again.
im sick of being sleepy all the time.
im sick of making futile guesses.
im sick of thinking way too much.
im sick of injuring myself after every training.
im sick of chatting with people i don't wanna have a conversation with.
im sick of being so dumb and stupid.
im sick of denials.
im sick of coming home late almost everyday.
im sick of trying to ignore everything that makes me sad.
im sick of being sick about everything.

come on, get a life. i can't be sick of everything every time. there must be something to look forward to. wells, life's not all dull and gloomy after all. don't worry, im not suffering from depression. far from it. im still the bubbly girl you guys know and love=D haha. im just really tired. i need a break. i need some form of escapism.

and friday will be best opportunity to rest and somehow get away from everything i don't wanna even waste one brain cell on. yeah baby=) im gonna meet up with my dear friend adels. haha. it's been a while since we last talked. in person. yay! and im gonna buy my tsubasa chronicle 13. soon! haha. it took CLAMP like forever to finish that book please. i miss reading my manga=P and i miss watching my animes=X

i miss everything that does not center around sa. (don't get me wrong. i love my friends here in sa!) it's just... i dunno. it's weird so it's kinda difficult to put it in words. sigh. where are the days when it's just about laughing and crapping and teasing? where are the days when life's just about completing assignments and studying for tests? i know i should not look back thinking about the past. but still. it's hard when there are so many unhappy things that take up nearly three-quarters of your brain.

i really hate jc life.

i wish i had chosen cj. then i can crap with baichi and laugh like there's no tomorrow=P haha.

life was just about laughing and horsing around.
life was never that complicated.
life was like a living fantasy.

i think this is just totally sickening.

geks dageek @ 7:58 PM

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

bless. blessed. blessings.

miraculously, i can still remember one of the many quotes from 'A View From the Bridge' (this is a play we had to study for lit for the last two years): 'he blesses you and you don't talk to him' . well, im not sure if it's 100% accurate. hello? i've chucked the contents of the book aside for quite a while, you know. haha. anyways, this is just something totally random. it just popped up in my head a few seconds ago. and it reminds me how much i miss slogging like hell trying to get every quote into my brain and the days when we would all scribble like mad so that we got every point down in our books. (mag low's notes are the BEST and it'd be a crime to miss even one point that she's made.)

that aside, i just wanna show my utmost gratitude to my friends who bless me. especially my four babes and limin=D i feel so overwhelming-ly blessed to have you girls in my life. and it's really sweet of mellycolljasmins to write me a card. really love it! thanks so so so so much for the encouragement and everything and anything! you guys have never ever failed to make my day. it's like whenever im down or anything, i know i can turn to y'all for comfort=D and your friendship is indeed a blessing=) blessings overwhelm (sounds familiar? take a look at mins' blog. haha.)

limin! don't be too discouraged, alright? i'll be there for you no matter what. don't let it rule your life. and if you need to vent your frustrations, you can always complain to me=) i'll be more than happy to lend you a listening ear. don't worry, no interest charged. lols. look on the brighter side, girl=D you still have your friends who care for you=D

a friend will not say never, 'cause the welcome will not end.
and a lifetime's not too long to be as friends.

geks dageek @ 8:33 PM

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Monday, May 08, 2006

okay.

im supposed to study for tomorrow's chem spa. but i shall dedicate this post to my dear friends=)

dear limin: thanks for always hearing me out as i ramble off about everything and anything that's happened in my life. i know it tends to get a little annoying when i keep on repeating the same things over and over again. but you've been so patient and everything=) and thanks for trying to cheer me up during gp tutorial. haha. i know it got quite scary when i just started laughing. haha. don't worry. i'll be fine. LOVE YOU=D

dear vincent: hey thanks for staying back in school to see if i was okay=) really really really appreciate it=D yups. you know you can always confide in me when you need a listening ear, alright? we (the 5 hot babes) will always stand by you. and don't worry about me, yeah? i'll be okay by tomorrow=) stay CHEERFUL.

dear bran: thanks for your concern=) i read the message you sent to vincent=) im alright=) anyways, congrats for getting through the interview!!!

dear khalid and branDON: oh my god. you guys are my saviours man! arghhhhh=) thanks so SO much for finding my physics booklet=D i was worried sick. and sorry about my rudeness earlier on yeah? 'cause i was super WORRIED. hahaha. =D

and of course, my dear babes: hey hey hey! i really don't know how to thank y'all for always being there for me. you guys are the best- always listening to my stories (though they are always repeated at least twice) and giving me all the support you can provide. don't worry about me. i'll do fine=) to mins, coll and melly: all the best girls! i'll definitely help y'all with the campaigning and everything=D and jas: hahaha. you'll be stuck with me in touch. lols. LOVE YOU GIRLS LOTS. and you know i'll always be there if any of you needs me yeah? =D

i think im mad but i feel really blessed=D

geks dageek @ 9:51 PM

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

'the best things in the world are free', as cited from melvin's speech last friday. well, i totally agree with him. i mean, you don't need money or gold or silver in exchange for an everlasting friendship, do you? 'course not. one of the best things that has happened to me in this life is my relationship with my ij friends:

zelina- my ever sillyzilly friend aka lame-o partner aka pro-elsie-and-kelsey teaser=P
adeline- my always-trying-to-be-lame-but-cmi dear friend, who is badly influenced by me and zilly.
celine- my ultra baichi friend, who always gets irritated by my supposed-to-be-funny jokes. aka my japclass partner=D
edith- my hamham! hahaha. both of us used to gang up to annoy baichi during guides meetings. lols.
felz- my dear meows=) oh we (hams, meows and i) just loooovveee to tease our beloved baichi=P
debby- my vertical partner=D miss her lame jokes. haha. ('are you free this weekend?', 'no im always expensive.') omg lols.
my morning ij gang at the fitness corner- kailing, suhui, ngminjia, sylvia, elsie, sama=D love you guys lots!

branDON said we should mingle around with other people instead of always sitting in a huddle with the same group every morning. what's the problem, anyway? we have more than enough time to socialize with others during school hours. mornings are our only time to catch up with one another's lives and relive the days in ij=) to me, that's the only time when i feel that im actually free from all the nonsense that just budged into my life. it's like life has become more complicated all of a sudden. i miss the blue-and-white days=\ all so pure and peaceful. haha. wells, sa uniform is blue and white too. but the blue's a darker shade.

i have people telling me all-girls schools are boring because there are no guys. says who? i think i
had loads more fun and laughter in ij than in sa now. hello? it's all in the name of girl power=P guys are not our whole world, you know. and it's indeed disheartening to see my friends getting all heartbroken and hurt over guys. sigh. really=\ no offence, though=P haha.

sigh. and i miss guides. i miss PLC'04/05, the days when we would get all stressed out 'cause of campfire, the meetings that did not seem to center around the main discussion topic (we're all hopeless procrastinators, you see. haha.), the many occasions when we would bitch about misslak and the silly 'duels' with squirrel. lols. oh yes! and i miss the in-the-middle-of-the-night patrollings. i miss the campfire. i miss cutting and pasting lyrics after lyrics for the campfire booklets. i miss serving food to the juniors. i miss making breakfast/lunch/dinner orders from uncle robert. i miss doing the treasury accounts. i miss counting the coy fund that never seems to tally. i miss painting the firepit banners. i miss our messy den. i miss sleeping in the stuffy canvas tent. i miss wearing my guides uniform.

okay, im going nuts. haha. there are so many things that i miss so much, things that can never be found elsewhere.

but i can't turn back time=(

really. i wish i could. it's impossible, i know. but sometimes i just can't help nursing the sanguine hope that time would somehow rewind itself. how do you expect me to look forward to the next day and the day after when all things seem to be stripped of hope? i don't know why i've become so hopelessly emotional nowadays. sigh. so annoying=\ and im not going to bottle up my feelings and remain silent like a friggin' idiot. how i wish i could easily display an unbridled wave of sheer anger and annoyance. rahhhh. i wanna scream: THAT'S IT. I'VE HAD ENOUGH.

im not going to let this whole thing encroach upon my life. this does not make me happy. in fact, it weighs my mood down. at the end of the day, i'd feel so horrible and discouraged that i really feel like crying. don't worry, im not suffering from depression. i guess this is just a part and parcel of life. there's no escaping it. right? right. and then i'd feel so dumb and stupid. why did i even bother to go anyway? seriously. i don't know what's going on in my head. and i don't know what this is all about. what's the purpose of it anyway? to go there and get all saddened and angry? or what? or to be ignored and treated like i were invisible? or to remind me that im a nobody after all? what? i've no idea. it's funny how i got really excited at first and how i found it increasingly burdensome after a while. i don't know what's going on. i told myself yesterday that i'd give it a last shot, thinking that perhaps things would improve and wouldn't be as terrible as i'd imagined. but it turned out otherwise. it was expected, though. and now, im just going to wallow in self-pity and shall wake up tomorrow to find it's just a bad dream. well, i had my fun, my smiles and everything sweet. so it's the end of this. and i don't have to worry about not being able to complete my tutorials on time. most importantly, i don't have to worry about being ignored all the time. and i really think i don't deserve such treatment. but it's okay. i still have my babes and my ij friends to count on.

this is seriously bringing me down and it's time to stop. yups.

my saturdays are free now=)

honestly speaking, i dunno what that smiley face is for. 'cause there's not even a modicum of relief or gladness.

just a sense of nonchalance.

geks dageek @ 8:10 PM

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Friday, May 05, 2006

poof. im all refreshed and happy=) why? 'cause...

1. had a short nap earlier on- which is something i hardly have the time to do nowadays. wonder why. hmm... =X
2. GP presentation was not as bad as i thought it'd be. yay=D i don't have to stay up till 12 just to finish the slides. for now, at least.
3. well, GPP is more or less done. just have to type it all out=)
4. had a wonderful time hanging out with my babes. though it was only for a short while. goodness! coll's ankle is like swollen and she has to hobble around with crutches. arghhh. go see a doctor soon, girl!
5. had lunch with mins and jas at taka's yoshinoya. love your company, girls=D
6. i've decided to take everything in my own stride. i mean, there's no point stressing yourself out. i've learnt to cast all my anxieties and concerns to God. yeah haha. that's something i found the most meaningful during cell group meeting yesterday=) erm no. im NOT going to embrace the christian faith.
7. yups. im gonna listen to limin and not think too much. sometimes the best way to avoid making unnecessary speculations and getting yourself all paranoid and troubled is to just be as dense as you can be. i believe that the less you know, the happier you'll be. haha yups=)

felt totally jaded today. im sick of school, sick of projects, sick of having to wake up early in the mornings. bahhhhh. really really really wanted to just sleep in and not go to school. but i couldn't find any valid reason to do so. hahaha. and the prospect of going out with my babes for lunch perked me up a little=D oh wells. school wasn't that horrible today. started the day with chapel. can't recall exactly what the pastor said 'cause i was asleep most of the time. then there was this speech competition thingy. i think melvin did a great job=D

math was, well, just math-ish. that reminds me. i have not completed my tutorial. disgusting=X ME was cancelled. major relief. 'cause i forgot to bring the journal. oops haha=X so we had a 30-min break. arghhh. and that gary had to call me gecko in front of SO many people. hmph. lols. anyways, bought mixed rice. i don't understand why they call it 'mixed' rice. how can the rice be mixed when there's only one type of rice grains used? okay like who cares. im just being super random. hahaha. econs tutorial was alright. went through some tutorial questions.

watched the rest play monopoly. the sc is the best place to sleep man. had a nice short nap=) yeah. i was damn tired. i NEED rest. really. went to find melly at the cafe to pay for the rapture ticket. met jas after that and we waited for mins. haha. then the four of us went to the innovation room to find coll. crapped and everything=D hope your ankle's alright, coll! melly couldn't join us for lunch 'cause she had dance and had to do her GPP.

lunch was great. the beef bowl rocks=D and butterscotch too=D

looking back on the good times that i've had makes today seem rather sad=P
LIMIN! get the song out of your head! lols=P

wellies. sometimes i think im just plain stupid lah. hahaha=P

geks dageek @ 7:04 PM

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

i didn't know the want to focus is such a feat. here i am- blogging instead of doing more meaningful things like writing the script for this thursday's GP presentation. i've been trying to tell myself to stay focused these past few weeks. but sadly, i find it quite a chore=X 'cause i've no idea how in the world im supposed to get down to doing work when my mind is in so many places all the time. it's hard to gather all my thoughts and get all focused on just one thing. goodness. i've lost that momentum. im so dead. oh wells. i just have to try.

focusfocusfocusfocusfocus

did i ever mention how much i hate tuesdays? okay whatever. i HATE tuesdays. you think monday blues are the worst? wait till you take a torturous ride down my tuesday schedule. i promise you endless excitement and fun. sarcasm sarcasm sarcasm=X just when monday's lessons finally ended, tuesday comes right up to your face and gives you a bloody shock of your life. okay, im exaggerating=P

the end of today is the start of tomorrow=X disgusting please. major turn-off.

but surprisingly, it wasn't all that bad today. all we did for chem pract was just going through the BC4. 'cause next week's spa. great. just great. rahhhh. had an hour-break before math lecture. i was asleep most of the time. so it seemed that time passed real fast during math. haha. went to the pw classroom to sleep. really. today's a sleepy day.

PW!!! my god. my group was damn productive=) we sort of planned our GPP. heh heh. we rock. oh yessss. i must remember to buy a file for all the proposals, minutes, etc. i don't enjoy being the group leader=( rahhh. econs lecture was sleep-inducing too. sigh.

PHYSICS TEST!!! if i pass, the pigs will start to fly=P disgusting subject. we had a 2.4 trial run. im VERY satisfied with my timing: 13.55. hope i can maintain that speed during the real thing. yups. and thanks chia! for the mcflurry=D

okay. it's time to do the script thingy. night, everyone!

P.S. thanks mins and melly! love y'all!

geks dageek @ 8:13 PM

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Monday, May 01, 2006

hey hey hey=) at leo's cramped and stuffy room trying to get ourselves focused on our GP project, which is due this thursday. but unfortunately, we are as unproductive as ever. talk about doing our best man. haha. it's okay. we'll get down to the project. after im done with this post. lols. what a responsible captain, eh? sigh. i think i wasted my weekend away. oh no. another guilt-filled week. okay, there's no such word. lols. and im seriously going to fail tomorrow's physics test. period.

saturday
went to leo's house to do GP project. but nothing fruitful was done 'cause we were all tired and... well... unfocused. everyone's just too caught up with some other stuff that are totally not related to GP. hahaha. hmm. it wasn't that unproductive, though. we did a few slides=) then i received hooper's message and i remembered i was supposed to go church. arghhh. in the end, i sort of 'abandoned' my group. oops. felt really bad=X went back home to change. 'cause i didn't think it was appropriate to wear slippers there. haha.

when i came out of the showers, there was one missed call displayed on my phone. i called and some weird indian-accented voice answered. this whole call thing is retarded beyond words. i was like speechless when i found out the 'truth'. my goodness gracious me=X

sunday
slept for practically the whole day. 'cause i was damn sleepy and i didn't have the motivation to do my math tutorial. disgusting please. woke up at around 4 plus and i finally had the drive to do the darn tutorial.

had mothers' day dinner with my relatives at some restaurant at beach road. the food was great=D then 'raja' called again. there was an addition, if i remembered correctly: prince kebab. spastic please=P raja loves nasi briyani. lols. okok. i think y'all don't know what in the world im talking about. haha. it's just some retarded method came up by hooper and his friend to help me de-stress and to ease their boredom. wahhh they rock=X damn lame please. but i had a good laugh. quite entertaining, to be honest. haha. it's alright 'cause i know it's well-intended=)

yup yups. that's all. okok. gonna complete our GP project.

later=)

geks dageek @ 1:33 PM

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