Sunday, July 30, 2006
i don't know why im doing this. but oh wells. all thanks to hams=P
7 random things about myself:
1. LAUGH like a hyena
2. can be sarcastic sometimes
3. tell jokes that are not funny
4. HATE physics like like like... HELL
5. look dao but actually im NOT (well, most of the time)
6. LOVE to sleep
7. i admit im geeky alright (though i procrastinate a LOT)
7 things that scare me:
1. spooky tales/movies
2. exams
3. when people whom you trust turn against you
4. snakes
5. getting injured
6. when CLAMP retires
7. BEES
7 random songs at the moment:
1. superwoman by cao ge
2. you laid aside your majesty
3. no such thing
4. beauty and the beast
5. far away
6. a whole new world
7. heart of worship
7 things i like most:
1. manga!
2. anime!
3. the drop-dead gorgeous smile on zac efron's face=)
4. my dearest friends (you know who you are!)
5. pingu!
6. my iPod nano
7. my Father in heaven=D
okay. done. yay.
geks dageek @ 8:55 PM
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kelsey wong's coming back tomorrow=D can't wait please. i miss teasing her and calling her KEKSAI=P haha.
im supposed to do physics tys and i haven't even started on any chapter yet! horror! shucks. i'd better do the one on 'forces' or i'll get it from mr chia=X
physics is out to torture poor gekshan please. sigh. what a disgusting subject=/
slept the whole afternoon away.
and im still tired. think i slept too much. oh wells. me and the sleepy bug=P
shoot. there's training tomorrow. i wonder how im going to get any work done at all. seriously.
oh yeah. went for salvation yesterday=) finally.
geks dageek @ 7:44 PM
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
i don't care what people think.
i DON'T CARE. geddit?
good.
whatever. today's one screwed up day. my eyes just refused to stay open.
and so i was in a horrible mood. totally in the touch-me-not state.
RAHHHH.
im 17 but im not acting my age. is that bad or what?
whatever.
i should have taken lit instead of physics. but what's the point of regretting it now? it's too late anyway. i miss lit=/
whatever.
there's cell group tomorrow. and im going. yay.
and hams just told me a friggin' lame joke. goodness. with friends like her you'll never mature. but i love being retarded=P
and last but not least. pw sucks hella big time=/
geks dageek @ 8:59 PM
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Monday, July 24, 2006
just happened to chance upon this picture while sorting my folders. it was taken on the day the olevel results are released. and we were all taking pictures after pictures 'cause it was a rare sight to see everyone in class donned in full school-U. haha. AND this is one of the very FEW pictures in which all five of us are present. i miss you fellow babes=X the fun we had during the first three months was indescribable man. oh well, but it's all over. never mind if we are all in different classes. 'cause our friendship will never die=) it's gonna last and burn more brightly than ever. babes of sa rule the world=D
off with the past.
on with the present.
monday blues. actually i don't really hate mondays 'cause there is only one tutorial and the rest of the day is just lecture after lecture. so it wasn't that bad. started the day with math lect. differentiation is a disgusting topic. yech=X and i think mr tan can't teach. which made the whole lecture even more unbearable. chem tutorial was horrible. i think im on mr koh's blacklist=X never mind. it's okay. im quite satisfied with my B for the chem test=)
had three periods of chem lect after three periods of break. surprisingly, i didn't fall asleep=) pro right. haha. organic chem is downright sickening. yuck=X physics lect was alright. ironically. lols. mr mannan was really funny today. hahahaha.
had GP review lecture. oh yeah. got a B for GP. quite happy with my grade=D anyway, it was damn boring please. was on the verge of drifting into lalaland. lols.
yup. that's my monday for you.
i hate tuesdays=P
geks dageek @ 6:40 PM
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Friday, July 21, 2006
it gets a little freaky how quickly time passes. i can still remember myself struggling for the prelims at this time last year. and now, i've completed more than half of my first year in jc. scary, huh? haha.
felt really sleepy today. in fact, i've been feeling the drowsiness for the past few days. it's sickening 'cause it makes my eyes dry. and it can get really uncomfortable especially when you're wearing contacts. haha.
racial harmony. had some concert in the morning. was quite entertaining=) with all the cheesy pick-up lines and stuff=P haha.
'excuse me, do you know how to perform CPR? 'cause you just took my breath away.'boooo please. but it's quite cute. haha. no im still cuter. 'cause im cuter than iPod nano. okay that was like so random and totally... lame.
maths was quite alright. wahh i swear that mrs chan is out to demoralise her students. it's teachers like her that causes more students to commit suicide. lols. i think she should be a little more considerate=X had a useless half-hour break before econs tutorial. hello panda rocks please. miss wong spent nearly three-quarters of the lesson explaining ONE question. something about the price ceiling and price floor. not completely sure what they are, though=) haha. moral ed was quite useless. about anger management, i think. i was stoning throughout the lesson. was damn tired.
and i was uncharacteristically 'high' today. well, i was irritating limin by being really random and telling her im cuter than iPod nano. lols. i love being 'high'.
met christian and jon for movie. pirates of the carribbean. goodness. the duration of the movie was too long. and the theater was freezing cold=X had dinner at subway. yummilicious please=) oh oh oh! had fun talking about 'sense of belonging' with christian=D didn't know they are studying that book for olevel. haha.
life's so much better when you're able to cast all the unpleasant things behind and move on.
im cuter than iPod nano=D
geks dageek @ 9:09 PM
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
'shoot for the moon. even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.'well, just a random inspirational quote i found on some random site. quite encouraging, right? hope so=)
okay. i don't want to sound so depressed and emotional anymore. it's so not me man. i love the bubbly girl i've always always always been. the girl who speaks the language of '
bubbles'. bloop bloop bloop. okay, that was just lame.
well, no pain no gain, right? right. it's just a mistake to learn from. no biggie. not the end of the world, yeah? yeah. and when you're feeling down and discouraged, run to Him and feel the overwhelming peace that can wash away the pain and disappointment. He is there to save you, to catch you when you fall, and to bless your life=)
we must never give up 'cause there will be something better beyond the horizon=) what it is we do not know. but trust in Him with all our heart and we'll get there one day. yay=D i feel so relieved now.
and so im not going to worry about tomorrow's selection trials.
bring it on^^
geks dageek @ 7:26 PM
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
every setback brings about a new revelation.
i think what i've gone through for the past six months is enough to write out a volume on life experiences.
seriously, i've never been through so much before coming to sa. sigh. i miss those carefree days=(
i understand now what mrs mag low meant when she said knowledge makes one cynical and more suspicious. but without it, it makes one ignorant. like what charlie gordon went through after some brain surgery.
sigh. the irony of life.
geks dageek @ 7:45 PM
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
have you ever had the feeling that what had been familiar is now strange and distant? and what had been unfamiliar seemed even more unreachable than the sky? it's called the sense of loss.
it's like you're in an enclosed area and no one can step into it. you're all alone and you have only yourself. the thought of it is scary and a little unnerving. but what other way is there? i guess i had been living in my own little perfect world, thinking that life is like a fairytale. i've been really naive and now it's time to grow out of it and be a bit more realistic.
i don't know what to do now and i don't want to think about it. what i feel like doing is to just let everything go and indulge in the virtual world. i know im just running from the problem but it's all i need right now. i don't have the courage to face it when the impact is still so intense. i know im not strong. well, i thought i was. until now. the inability to accept reality.
but im certain i'll get over it.
sigh. but it's just too difficult for now. i can't believe im so foolish to actually accept stupid rumours as the truth. im so gullible.
that's it. im through with all the boy-girl issues. they are none of my concern anymore.
i may feel empty now but i believe i'll find something that'll make my remaining one and a half years in sa meaningful. but still. this sense of loss is too overwhelming.
reality. it sucks.
geks dageek @ 7:23 PM
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Friday, July 14, 2006
mind games.
a newly designed game to torture your mind.
and it's even more horrendous than the Game of Life.
there.
mind games or not. im tired. it's too mentally demanding and im not in the mood to keep the 'game' going. it's like going around in circles after circles, making you dizzy and lose your sense of reality. and then it makes you confuse your own feelings with the truth. thing is, i don't even know what the truth is. so it makes things more difficult to understand. i hear stuff from my friends but it's like you can never be sure about these things. you've got to know what the real deal is before any conclusion can be made. assumptions are just mere personal perceptions that can't be related to the truth. so im not going to assume anything. oh man i really hate mind games.
can somebody please ban the game? it's driving me crazy.
geks dageek @ 5:48 PM
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
the common tests are finally over! gosh. it's been two torturous weeks=X and you know what it means? yes! it means i can dream about MY zac efron all day all night=D what a luxury please. haha. zac efron is MY eye-candy. lolliesandchocs<3 sweet.
alright. enough of my obsession with the world's hottest guy. lols. anyways, all i can say about the tests is... sigh. i hope i pass every one of them. well, perhaps not physics. if i pass physics, i'll be the future president of Singapore. so, it amounts to a complete no-no.
had lunch at taka's yoshinoya. went home to sleep=P
no life? nah. if i had no life, i wouldn't be typing this post. lols. okay. it was so not funny=P
geks dageek @ 5:27 PM
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
england lost to portugal.
michael owen broke his knee.
there.
are there any more disheartening news?
spent the entire day doing chem tys. sheer torture=( but High School Musical made up for it=) i don't care what people think of my obsession with zac efron. he's too damn hot to resist. haha. call me crazy=P
zacharydavidalexanderefron.
anyway, the first week of school is really. mentally exhausting. i don't know if it's schoolwork, or the prospect of having to sit for the stupid common tests that's wearing me out. or if it's something totally dumb. i don't know=X but i do know one thing-- some form of transition is taking place and i don't think im able to handle it alone. so it's a good thing i can talk it out with my friends. lols. actually, im still clueless about what's going on. deliberately? maybe. what good is it to find out everything you're not supposed to know? it'll just make things even more complicated. and it's already becoming weirder by the day. and it's making things a little... awkward? come to think of it, it's quite hilarious=P haha. i mean, i've never expected it to become this way. it's really strange. super strange. and perhaps that's the reason why i've been acting strange these days. but never mind. i'll get over it. it's just a fleeting moment of 'strangeness'. hahaha.
but it's not helping when you have LIMIN telling you you're just lying to yourself. which is obviously not true. well, at least that's what i've been telling myself. it's not self-denial. it's the truth. okay, i've no idea what im talking about. this whole thing will resolve itself one day. so in the meantime, i shall focus my attention to the latest piece of juicy news. haha. MELLY&EFRON. lols.
oh yeah. clarice asked me a thought-provoking question. she asked me if i see myself staying in the church. yeah, she meant long term kind of stay. yeah. thing is, i don't even know why. well, the people there are nice and all. the sermon is sort of enlightening. are they the ones that make me want to attend church every saturday? seriously. i've never expected myself to get attached to a church or any of the sort. really. it's kinda funny to see gekshan attending church. lols. so... i'll just continue the weekly routine and see how it goes. i'll stop going if i find there's no reason to attend service. i mean, im not even a christian please. oh wells. one step at a time. no use thinking too far ahead. hahaha=P
i think i'll turn in for now. another round of torture awaits me the next day. shucks=X
geks dageek @ 10:20 PM
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