Friday, November 24, 2006
thought it through.
yes. should stop being so hopelessly childish.
but anyway.
thanks for your lovely sweetolicious tags=) loves=)
well, we're living in an imperfect world with imperfect people. yeah. all the imperfections.
don't appreciate it? well, don't ever do. 'cause i don't care anymore. even if you did, nothing's gonna change. so just leave it. that'll be a really big favour thanks.
was in the dumps these past few days. but the hour-long talk with clarice changed my mindset about certain issues. that one phone call stopped me from doing something i would regret. in the spiritual sense, i mean. there were just too many disappointments that somehow caused my faith to waver. and i was tempted to leave Him. but i didn't. and i don't want to. He has been faithful to me. always been. and i can't imagine days without Him. He has loved me so and i should do the same. He has picked me up from too many falls. too many for me to turn my back on Him. so thanks clarice! for that phone call.
rebuilt my faith. and im REALLY relieved i didn't make the wrong decision.
and yes. i'll continue to place hope in people. i'll use that in all godliness. i'll continue to give. keep on giving. i know my love tank will never be dry, for He will keep on filling it, till it overflows=)
a heart that's ever trueone that's after You =)
geks dageek @ 2:28 PM
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
i had nothing to give.
but i had a friend in me i could share with the people around me.
now i still have nothing to give.
but neither do i have that friend in me to share.
im easily touched by little things.
and im easily disappointed with little things too.
weird, huh. well, can't help these things. i don't want it either. i told myself at least a million times not to place too much hope in people. but i did. ALWAYS did. and i end up getting all disappointed. then all the cynicism starts. and all your friends start to reassure you blah blah blah. i know it's all crap. just things they say to cheer you up but never mean it. then i get all touched by their concern and start planting seeds of hope again. and it all forms a cycle. disgusting.
but i know there are people who aren't like that. i KNOW.
it's just a minority. but that minority is enough of a disappointment.
okay, i don't know why im being such an ass here. it's so frustrating. why do i always harbour such cynical thoughts? RAHH.
well, some things just can't be helped.
oh well. i guess it's not advisable to be everyone's friend. 'cause i know that cycle of disappointment will repeat itself again and again. and i don't want to feel all emo and sad over such stupid things. it's not worth it. IT'S NOT WORTH IT.
who cares anyway. im just that girl who means nothing to anybody.
and im used to it. it's okay.
i hope and i hope. i pray and i pray. i try and i try. i try to do my best. i try to be something to the people around me.
whatever. not like anyone cares or appreciates what im trying to do. but it's okay. i mean, who would want to care about some annoying girl venting all her frustrations on her blog to let the whole world read about her angst-filled problems? it annoys even myself.
oh well. can't be bothered anymore.
on a lighter note.
mel received salvation! so happy for her=D
and zelina will be back soon=) 6th!
and i want another babes outing!
i have nothing to give anymore.
geks dageek @ 7:22 PM
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
who said you gotta have a glamourous life and big bucks to lead a happy contented life? it's all the simple things in life that create the rainbows and blue skies=) but more often than not, we tend to forget the simple things that make us happy. haha. SO. yesterday was a day in which i felt the true bliss of enjoying the
SIMPLE THINGS in life. haha. repetition=P
chilled out at colleen's house yesterday. it was a last-minute affair! haha. had like quite a huge portion of shepherd's pie for lunch and colleen burnt her taste bugs with the super spicy tomyam beehoon. lols. watched an episode of sex and the city before BAKING. man, i LOVE baking. so FUN. haha! had fun weighing out the ingredients and using that batter machine. lols! kept forgetting to lift that bowl up=X haha! and we added lotsa choco chips! haha. more black than white. and colleen was complaining she didn't manage to taste the white choco chips. lols! watched a few more sex and the city episodes. wahhh. that's one horny show=P so we spent most of our time eating and watching. chips cookies chips. BLOATED we became. haha. but i had a great time! didn't you colleen! haha! yay=D
COLLEEN CHAN made my day=D LOVEYOU GIRL<3took three buses to rebec's house. surprised i didn't lose my way. lols. haha. n329 loved the cookies!
GRINS. the sharing of the word was short. spent most of the time worshipping and all. was good=D oh and i decided not go for baptism. oh wells. my time will come. haha.
all thanks to COLLEEN CHAN, yesterday was GREAT!
Lord we want to lift Your name on high=)
geks dageek @ 11:04 AM
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
pictures taken on sunday=)
yay! i can add these two pictures into my favourite pics list. FULL STRENGTH. yes. either one shall be my wallpaper=) whoa. really love these girls as deep as the ocean, as much as the night sky. they always make my day! haha. no matter how upset or down i may be, they never fail to cheer me up. thanks girls! for all fun and laughter! really enjoyed myself on sunday. we must meet up soon yes=) the FIVE of us. no more no less. lols. I LOVE YOU=)
haha. i felt so touched when i read min, coll and mel's blogs. haha. they did the dumb questionnaire for GEKS. yes. feel so LOVED.
'Ok I'm only doing this cos geks told me to and coll too. With so many people on my back and me being the nice person I am, I shall do it!'
MEL! you rock! lovelove! hope you're feeling better! don't waste your energy and time getting all frustrated with people who obviously don't understand your situation. don't worry! cheers and smiles for you! -hugsss-
'This is SPECIALLY FOR Ng Gekshan who being very bored did this survey and asked FIVE others to do this survey of which I am one of them! Gekshan this is for you! I would never have touched such things. See! This is what friends are for! Love you Geks.'
COLLEEN! thanks for being such a wonderful host on sunday. haha. i love your lamblamb and mr hug=) they are so adorable!!! lols. LOVE YOU LOTS=D oh yes. and thanks for the chips! heh=P-hugsss-
' I ve no idea why I am doing this, but i guess maybe its because Geks is my best friend. (:'
MIN! haha. you're my best friend too! and so are the other girls=) lols. love you girl! thanks for making sunday a FUN-FILLED day and the advice you gave when i wasn't sure if i should go for the baptism class. THANKS. i've decided to just go for it and just have faith. haha=D LOVE YOU BIMBO GIRL. lols=P (joking only. cannot take jokes isit?? lols) -hugsss-
and JAS! thanks for being such a GREAT friend. enduring all my crap and all! you've been my motivation to go for trainings=) yes. 'cause friendship endures. im sorry that i decided to quit the team and left you cca-less. never mind. we shall get another cca together! LOVE YOU GIRL LOTS!!! and you shall sing for us one day! -hugsss-
HAHA. im easily moved by such little things. simple yet touching. maybe i don't show it all the time, but i really do appreciate what you girls have done for me=) i thank God for all of you=) wonderful blessings in my life=) and you know you can always count on me FOR SURE.
okay. this post sounds a little bimbotic. but who cares! i love my babes LOTS=D
geks dageek @ 5:54 PM
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been a crazy week so far. all the madness and fun left me pretty beat. AND i have to go ALL THE WAY to school just to sign some stupid file. hell.
stayover at coll's was fun. haha. it was a last-minute thing. and i didn't have my specs and my precious PINGU=( haha. but it was exciting. haha. tried to sleep but couldn't. 'cause the mahjong tiles produced alot of NOISE. lols. yup. didn't sleep at all in the end. went home with min, mugen and yonghui at around 7 in the morning. went home and slept for about 3 hours. woke up at 12 to do my final I&R draft. bathed and packed for chalet. MADNESS. haha.
i found my way to costa sands resort all by MYSELF. haha=D it was a refreshing experience to travel all the way to sentosa alone. it's all peace. nice=) i was horrified by the size of the room. SO TINY. think it's smaller than my room. and to think that all of us (around 10) had to sleep in that ONE SMALL room. MADNESS.
bbq was alright. ate and ate, while the guys cooked for us. heh. went back to the room to BATHE. haha. xiaolan and hsiaoen were playing some retarded card game. they made so much noise please! lols. slacked in the room. was exhausted.
only managed to sleep for around 4 hours? like in two days. am i pro or what.
and i had diarrhoea the next day. WOW. lols.
goshhh. im tired. im so lazy to go to school.
geks dageek @ 10:54 AM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
haha im at colleen's house using her computer=D heh. min coll zhexuan mugen and yonghui are downstairs playing mahjong. and fred's coming later! FUN.
been a great day so far. had dinner at chompchomp with the babes, mugen, zhexuan and yonghui. well, supposed to be a class outing. but. haha=P had lotsa fun crapping with them. miss them so much! haha. then colleen and minyi wanted to play mahjong at colleen's house. so the whole stayover thing is like last minute. lols.
anyways, i LOVE s03 MUCHES!
geks dageek @ 10:53 PM
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
yay got my layout changed. joy=)
school tomorrow. horror=X
fruity-licious affair tomorrow. excitement=D
service on saturday. peace=P
s03 gathering on sunday(hopefully). love<3
haha. that's my itinerary for the rest of the week. not much. but it's fulfilling enough=)
can't wait for cellgroup! haha. guangren! we're so going to trash your group! lols. POSITIVE COMPETITION. heh. i love my group mates to bits- limei and leonard! haha. they give the best ideas, i tell you. and clarice gave me some pointers to lead the group tomorrow.
plan. delegate. visualize. instruct. involve. and then
WIN. haha nah. what matters is the process and not the prize. yup. it's gonna be exciting!
i need a miracle.patiencefaith. patiencefaith.
geks dageek @ 8:40 PM
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
this just shows how much life i have.
1. Single, taken or crushing?single=)
2. Are you happy with your life now?well, alright i guess. but it would be BETTER if the teachers didn't give us any hols assignments. sucks, i tell you. one whole thick set of maths questions! gahh.
3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?wait. how would you know if he's the right one before you even know him? it'll take time to REALLY fall for him.
4. Have you ever been heart broken?haha yes. but i won't let it happen again=)
5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?i don't know. it depends. but such things are hard to say. i mean you can't really control your own feelings. i think. haha.
6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?hmm. if it's just a moment of folly, then maybe i will. that is, if i love him as deep as the ocean. heh=P
7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?yeah. haha. like how the guy should be tall enough so that the girl won't look taller wearing heels. lols!
8. Do you want children?-shudders- too early to ponder over that anyway=P
9. How many?one would be enough of a nightmare. YUCK.
10. Would you consider adoption?i would rather adopt an animal. i LOVE dogs=D
11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?tell me straight in the face. i don't like those beating-around-the-bush nonsense. it irritates me.
12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?i don't now. never tried it before. but i think it would be more stressful than fun. haha.
13. Do you believe in love at first sight?NOPE. it's just infatuation.
14. Do you believe you can change someone?no. don't think i have that much of an influence. lols.
15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?somewhere like heaven. haha church? with all the whites and all the flowers. so romantic please=)
16. Do you give in easily when fighting?verbally, yes. mentally, no.
17. Do you have feelings for anyone now?yeah, my eye-candy=) an unattainable love. LOLS=D im just joking=P
18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?nope.
19. Have you ever broken a heart?i think. haha. and i feel a little guilty about it. 'cause of my insensitivity=X oops.
20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do?well, all's fair in love and war. but i wouldn't want to affect the friendship. 'cause best friends don't just come and then go. they are the ones who will stand by you no matter what. but if she really loves him, she can have him=) i treasure friendships more.
21. Are you missing anyone right now?ZELINA ADELINE BAICHI MEOW HAM
22. Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.limin hsiaoen melly colleen minyi
okay. this is like so dumb. haha but i had fun=)
geks dageek @ 8:13 PM
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
ahhh i love this verse from the book of Matthew.
'therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things.'-Matthew 6:34colleen gave me this verse before and i thought it was really good. so yups. to all of my friends who are feeling down or anything,
DON'T WORRY yes. the problems will sort themselves out with
FAITH. so smile! nothing is impossible with
God=D
'trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acnowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.' -Proverbs 3:5-6
geks dageek @ 11:10 AM
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the two darlings that accompanied me on sunday night=) hug and lamblamb! so CUTE. yesyes. i ADORE stuff toys. they are my LOVE. lols.
the usual s03-gathering attendees. haha. i love you guys loads and more loads=) yonghui, zhexuan and mugen! babes! bleahh. fred and yongjian couldn't make it. oh they are the 'usuals' too. haha. anyway, you guys have made the gathering enjoyable and i treasure every second of it. though i was really tired, you guys have made my sunday a fun-filled one! really had tons of fun and laughter! haha. LOVES. hope we can do this again! some time soon=)
