Tuesday, December 26, 2006
love christmas=)
attended FOUR services in three days. two on saturday. which means i watched the same drama four times and sang the same carols four times. haha. madness. the drama was awesome. hilarious and entertaining=) love every part of it=) quite a number of new friends came. haha=) the candles part was totally wow. a really pretty sight! lols.
anyways, thanks for the smses! sorry i didn't reply all of them, cos i exceeded this month's free smses. heh. and thanks for the cards and presents! lovelove<3
arghhh. gotta rush down to city hall. to practice the play for audition.
yay and i finished the script. JOY=D
later!
HAPPY BOXING DAY=D
geks dageek @ 11:53 AM
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Friday, December 22, 2006
it feels gooodd to be home alone. no distractions, quiet, peace. haha. best time to study=) finished alkenes and arenes. like finally. though there are 5 or 6 more chapters to go, all of which are at least 20-page long. goodness. if only i had started earlier! oh well. it's still an accomplishment=) christmas in a few days' time! time flies! haha. OH NO. im STILL not done with the cards! oh crap! and there are presents to buy! OMG im so dead! gahhhh=/
watched 2 episodes of ccs last night. madness. haha. had a sudden craving for that anime. lols=P and ep 66 was just soooo swweeeett=)
'it'll be good enough for me to see him happy'. what selfless love of a 11-year-old girl. sakura is my role model=) sweet=) okay, im being nuts here. haha. rambling stupidly about an anime character=P lols.
i love ccs!
geks dageek @ 2:59 PM
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
bleahhh. SICK. hate the bloody flu=/
anyways, thanks colleen! yeahh. i'll take a break if i ever need one=) love you!
yesterday was one good day catching up with the babes. been a while since i last saw them! haha. had a VERY LATE lunch (thanks to mn) at subway. and i repeated the story FOUR times. yes, mel counted=P lols. arghhh! i shan't think about it anymore. it's kinda infuriating=/ anyways, shopped around marina square! mango's having SALE. too bad im broke=( haha. oh yes! fell totally in love with this white long-sleeved top from topshop. it was like
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. haha! but the smallest size was 10 and it looked a little too baggy on me (according to mel). haha.
walked mel and min back to citylink=) coll and i continued to shop! haha. QUALITY TIME. she loved this red pair of heels from vnc. haha. but she didn't buy it in the end. oh well=P walked to suntec to see if they had the right size of my dear top. haha. but the number of the white tops was more pathetic than the one in marina square. lols. decided to go town. cos colleen wanted to get christmas presents for her family.
yay! got the top from wisma's topshop! HAPPY=D and colleen managed to get presents for her parents and brother! JOY. haha. can't wait for christmas! oh crap! im not done with cards yet! =X
anyways.
now i understand what mrs mathews meant when she said 'once you walk out of the gates of ij, you'll leave a safe haven and there'll be no more protection from the outside world' during our grad night last year. i can't remember exactly all the words. but it meant something like that. haha. i've only been there for only four years but the culture has a hell load of influence on me. lols. sounds stupid but it's true=) and i've always thought everything would be the way i want them to be. and i used to think i was strong. haha. so many things have happened in this one year. and now i don't think im invincible anymore. im not shielded from all the harsh realities that life entails. sucks, right. lols=) bleahhhhh=P
lesson learnt: protect yourself=) OH NO. i still have sooo many cards to write! later!
geks dageek @ 5:44 PM
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
feels kinda weird being absent from one service. well, it's only one. but somehow that one-time absence creates a rift between all the church-ly things and me. oh well. too tired to think about that. had a good rest over the weekend. watched zack and cody, mr bean and a disney movie. done watching summer beach. lee wan is so hot! haha. slept a lot too=) and this short break somehow detached my mind from a lot of things. people, tiredness, disappointments. don't want to have any expectations from anybody anymore. just let things be. the less you expect, the less chance of being disappointed. well, that was how i started this year. and it worked. don't expect much- or anything- from me either. what do you think you can expect from someone whose love tank is completely empty? nothing, obviously. im just so sick and tired of everything and everyone.
im 17 going on 18. i know what im doing. so don't treat me as though im a 7-year-old, like i don't know anything. goodness, i deserve some respect too. don't use that commanding voice to order me around. just cos you're doing a lot of things, just cos you're more mature than me, it doesn't mean you can treat me like trash okay. i don't know what i've done to deserve all these. cos i don't remember doing anything wrong. whatever. i don't care anymore.
anyway, going out with zelina and adeline tomorrow. will be a good day of shopping, eating and resting=) haha. a good break from all the nonsense. how i wish everyday could be like that- shop, eat, watch korean drama, sleep. no problems, no disappointments, no nothing. maybe it's a good idea to be a loner. that way i won't have to deal with people and all their bad attitudes. but it's impossible.
dear santa, i've been reeeeaaaalllyyy goooddd this yearr, so can you pwwweeeeaaassee give me all the loooovvvvee in the world? this christmas, i just hope for my friends to show me love and kindness, to show me they treasure our friendship, that they don't take me for granted. dearest santa, this is my only christmas wish this year. i don't want anything else. i just want my friends to love me=) pwweeeease santa pwweeeeaaassee, i've been a reeeaaalllyyyy goooodd girl this year=)with lotsa love,gekshan
geks dageek @ 9:05 PM
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
in a mess.
disappointments.
disillusions.
anger.
tired.
sick.
disgusted.
why.
now.
used to.
not anymore.
changes.
attitudes.
you.
them.
all.
cold.
yes no.
promises.
lies.
alright.
actually not.
never mind.
don't care.
whatever.
need a damn break.
geks dageek @ 12:26 PM
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
yesterday was one stupid day, i tell you. but surprisingly, it didn't end on a bad note. so yeah. haha. had a little gathering with yonghui, hooper and eileen at orchard. and we took a really long time before deciding to eat at bk. lucky i ate at home. really regretted going. i don't know why i even bother to go. it would have been WAY BETTER if i stayed at home. i could have revised a bit of org chem. that would have been so much more fulfilling. can't believe i wasted my afternoon going to some dumb gathering. gathering my ass. more like torture=/ it was
sooooo friggin' boring please. my presence there was seriously absolutely redundant. i'll never ever go out with this group of people anymore. totally. and that she-thinks-she's-better-than-anybody girl should just give me a break. STOP PUTTING ME DOWN. and stop asking me if the guys perspire or not. i don't know and i don't care. and stop saying things which are not supposed to be said in front of everybody. wahh if she were to be invited into the cell, i'll definitely leave man. transfer to another cell or something. yes. i admit im not so open-hearted. okay. put it this way. im not good enough to be her friend. it's true. firstly, im not rich like her. secondly, i don't have any branded stuff. and thirdly, im not glam like her.
there. enough is enough.
thank God for jon and his friend who happened to be in town yesterday. goodness! if not for them, i would've died of sheer boredom with those people. some people are just not worth your time. so anyways. had a good time with them. thank God!
prayer meeting was good=)
sometimes i really think church events are really a tad overwhelming. i mean. im still in jc. not as if i've completed my alevels or anything. this hols is my only time to really do some serious catching up. and i really really want to use this hols wisely. yes. time management. i know. but it's easier said than done. seriously. you can't expect me to push all my studies aside and devote all my time on church events right?? and my life does not just revolve around cell group okay. i have my other friends as well. yes. family. i know. but you can't expect me to not spend time with my friends at all right? it's getting stressful and i don't think people will understand. they'll say things like 'so your studies more important than God lah?' and 'so your friends more important than cell group lah?'. what sweeping statements! i think that they should give me some space for things other than church events. not attending every event does not mean i do not love God more than anything else. and it certainly does not measure the degree of your devotion to the cell group and church. there are certain things which have to be regarded above all else. like studies. you can't expect me to play everyday, go for every event, and then neglecting my studies. sorry i can't do that. and if you tell me 'why study so hard? you have God to help you, to see you through', im telling you you're just being too impractical. God wants us to do our best and He'll do the rest. you can't just wait for miracles to fall upon you while you're sitting on the couch doing nothing.
point is. i have other commitments too. so don't give me all the crap about not loving God blah blah blah. i want to do well for my alevels. i want to fulfill my parents' expectations. i go for service and cell group every week. and i do TRY to attend church events. but please understand the fact that i can't just neglect everything. i have my friends, my family and my studies too. i love God. and i don't have to prove it by jeopardizing my studies and friendships. im gonna prove it by glorifying His name with my results. and that's that.
so stressed. there's still chem to study for and christmas cards to write. bleah.
anyways, had fun at zelina's house today! simba is so cute please! haha. LOVES.
later!
geks dageek @ 9:54 PM
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
TOTAL BOO-NESS. CAN'T GO TO THE AIRPORT! RAHH. MY DAD SAID IT'S TOO LATE. RAHH.
haha. oh wells. will meet up with ZELINA LOH tomorrow or something=) heh. tsk! why take the night plane? haha.
anyways, finished the HCI maths paper. sick questions.
arghhhh!!! my mum bought two new sets of korean drama!!! and it's so tempting please!
santa can you hear me!i have been soooo goood this year! =)
geks dageek @ 6:01 PM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
tuesday. kept thinking today's wednesday. lols.
random=P
anyways.
ZELINA LOH IS COMING BACK TOMORROW AT 9.35PM!!! woohoo=) can't wait! crapping time! arghh!!! i can still remember all the dumb things we did in class!!! here are some lame-ities copied from last year's posts=D HAHA.
me: (copying down correction for chem's assignment)partner: wa lao eh, i can't stand your handwriting man.me: (trying to stifle laughter. puts on a straight face) then don't stand la. can sit what.partner: (laughed like a looney)HAHA. that was during chem and i was trying to be funny. haha. LAME. oh, zilly was my sitting partner for one and a half years=D LOLS. okay, that was so random!
then there was another one.
partner: wahh my nose is running like hell lah.me: make it stop then.OMG. LAME. hahahaha! that was during morning assembly! haha.
hahahaha i think im too excited! haha!
that aside, today's been a pretty well-spent day. read Time and learnt many new words. yes. i read Time for vocab=) and hsiaoen! im soooo not a maths freak okay! lols. the articles are pretty interesting too=) haha.
oh man oh man. i haven't finished writing my christmas cards!
rahhh. yay! tomorrow's coming soon=) will be meeting rebec to buy some STUFF. haha. SECRET=P and then to the airport! hahaha. i miss SIMBA=/ haha. okay, im feeling high now. lalalala!
yup! i know zhiying! haha. she's my kindergarten friend=) haven't seen you in a
looonnnggggg time, jess! lols! hope you're doing fine=)
LATER=D
geks dageek @ 5:36 PM
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Sunday, December 03, 2006
im in a game of dodgeball.
i duck. i run. i step aside.
the ball flies past me.
im safe.
so. as long as i continue to duck, run and step aside, im safe.
keep avoiding, geks. then you'll be out of trouble.
oh well.
anyway, somebody got run over by a train at admiralty station. and there was no train for like god knows how long. so i took the one towards jurong east and was 1 hour late. haha. service was great=) argued with joash about the office issue again. lols. and leonard was like 'wah j1 fighting with a sec 1'. lols.
MAD today at sentosa. didn't go. told you, i was busy playing dodgeball.
oh well. signs of withdrawal. haha. maybe im getting too old for all these things. and i think im becoming a bore. gecko is no fun anymore. and she knows. that's why she plays dodgeball now.
reality sucks.
and i think Time magazines and maths are more interesting than anything else. i must be going nuts.
geks dageek @ 8:17 PM
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
been a fruitful week so far. glad i didn't waste yet another week=)
monday- haha. sort of wasted the entire day watching some taiwanese idol drama. it's nice, okay. heh.
tuesday- did maths in the afternoon. gosh, it's sleep-inducing i tell you. haha. went for YL zone prayer meeting. was alright. just that the place was a little isolated. scary. haha.
wednesday- did maths the whole day. but obviously there were quite a number of questions that stumped me into total
'blur-ness'. lols.
thursday- did maths again. my life revolves around maths now. next will be chem. ORGANIC chem=/
eww. had youth revival meeting in the afternoon. the word was good. had dinner at JP's food court. i HATE food courts. haha. and man, stuart can be
sooo BIMBOTIC when he wants too. -applauds- lols! had a really good laugh over stupid things=P and i missed my project superstar.
rahhh=/
friday- woke up super early. 9am! had CIC BS with yahlan at the chc office. coolness please. after BS, she led us on a tour around the office. and we saw pastor kong's office. yayness=) and my office is bigger than joash's=P haha. had lunch at rafflescity's subway. goodness. i think im addicted to that eating place. heh. went with justine to his house to do the shirt design. wahhh we confirm win. haha. played this helipcopter game and i sucked at it.
like totally! (n329's favourite catchphrase of the month, courtesy of shaun isaac tan. lols.) leonard came at around 5 plus. and he beat my score effortlessly!
rahhh=/ the three of us took a bus to queensway=) had a good talk while we waited for our shirt=) and WOW. the shirt looked amazing! and who's idea was that?
OUR idea! lols=D
was a well-spent day with leonard and justine. despite the usual suan-ings and all. i thank GOD for the both of them=D they made my day! haha.
service later.
catch ya=)
come Holy Spirit fall on me now =)
geks dageek @ 10:18 AM
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